T.T

It sickens me when I keep on doing the same mistake over and over again and yet I don't help myself change. I always keep telling myself that "this would be the last time" "I won't do it again" yet I always fall on the same trap. I'm not comfortable sharing the mistake/sin I did. It's not the point anyway.

GOD HATES SIN. It gives this sort of barrier between us. I really feel ashamed for the things that I asked forgiveness for but I still keep on doing.

I'm really trying, maybe just not good enough. Weak? Maybe, spiritually.

Going to Church Won't Make You a Christian

I sat quietly on one of the pews of our Church, trying hard to understand the sermon that struck me the most. The pastor illustrates that standing on a bench won’t make you a bench. Likewise, going to church won’t make you a Christian.

I also remember a colleague saying that going to church is religion, because you “religiously” do this once, twice or thrice a week. What’s important though is having an intimate relationship with God.

So what makes a church-goer a Christian?

What the Pastor said is that when a person can’t get enough of the love of Christ. You hear Christ when he speaks, you see Christ in his actions and when the likeness of Christ is in him.

For me I think it’s true that it’s not enough to profess you’re a Christian by just believing in Christ/God. Supposedly, it’s how people see the light of Christ in you.

I would be a hypocrite if I say that I embody Christ’s image in me. But it’s something that we should look forward in our daily lives. I’m really trying hard to do and be good every day. Every day is a constant battle of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong.

Each day should be an opportunity to get closer to God and know more about his amazing love.

Season Premier

          Two weeks of break from school is not enough. I can't believe that school is going to start again. The thoughts of me going back to school on Monday makes me feel uneasy and I'm just not ready.

           A large part of my sem break went to sleeping, watching TV and going online. Some parts were spent on writing and procrastinating- it's what I do best! I actually made a list of things-to-do this break and 90% of that was not done. I'm so lazy! The only major thing I can think of that I became very productive was me registering as a voter, which took only few hours to get done. I was also supposed to continue doing my 1,000 piece puzzle but I think I only added two pieces. For 2 weeks I only added 2 pieces. LOL. SRSLY! Again, I'm so lazy. I also wrote in my things-to-do list to read any material for 2 hours but I only read tweets and anything that I see on my news feeds. I also tried changing my waking/sleeping routine but that never happened as well.

Here's what I do normally:

Around
2:00-3:00 pm

I wake up and have my late lunch. If I wake up early like 12, I eat then watch little TV then take a nap and wake up again around 3 or for in the afternoon.

3:00-10:00 pm

This is the time where I watch TV, eat dinner, shower, do random non-sense stuff, watch more TV, lying in my bed imagining things that'll never happen, listening to my new downloaded music and stretching (I love stretching).

10:00 pm-1:00 am

I go online. Of course I do the usual- Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Google+ and YouTube. Sometimes if I get on the computer a little late I finish a little late too.

1:00-3:00 am

This is the part of day where I channel surf, do personal hygiene thing and eat snacks before going to sleep. I usually check fb and twitter on my phone before really sleeping, and then I pray after that I hit the sack.

          Yeah I know that my sem break is pretty lame, but I still liked it. I know that in the next few days I'll be waking up early again, doing loads of assignment and dealing with school's never ending drama, and this sem break literally gave me a break of everything stressful at school. Since school's going to start I'm going to stay in Manila more often than with my family and that is what I'm going to miss the most.

          Another season will be premiering on Monday and I'm hoping that it will turn out great. Last semester was running smoothly until we reached the latter part of it- a season ender I'll never forget.

Jigsaw: Movie and Trailer

This should have been posted weeks ago.  -_-

          Our silent short film, Jigsaw, is one of our section's entries in this year's 'Shh... Silent Short Film Festival. This is just a small event of our college lead by the FILAC (Film Aficionados Circle), spear-headed by Ms. Arapia Ariraya. She's our professor in our Film Appreciation subject. All 5 sections of the 3rd year broadcasting students should have at least 1 or 2 entries.

          When I was in first year or maybe 2nd year, I forgot, my friend lends me a copy of short scary stories. Some of the stories were pretty scary. Some were just a bit off to me. It's this one story that I thought could be a good piece for a short silent film. I've learned that it's a campfire story in the U.S. HERE is the link of the story I was talking about. We kind of change some parts and made it our own. But of course it's clearly an adaptation.

Here is the trailer and the complete clip of Jigsaw. We're not that good so please don't expect too much.

Trailer

Film

These are the awards we got:

BEST POSTER

BEST SOUND

BEST PRODUCTION DESIGN

BEST EDITING

BEST CINEMATOGRAPHY

BEST PICTURE

BEST DIRECTOR: ME! Leo Alexis Ecijan

Thank you God!

           You might want to read what happened before and during the awarding: Click HERE and HERE.

Late Registration- Almost!

October 29, 2012

          

          Since our sem break started last week, I didn't have the urge to register as a voter until now. The last day of registration is on Wednesday and I'm already two days near the deadline.

          The call time for my friends and I was supposedly 8:30 a.m so that we'll get a chance to be the first in line but we ended up going there around 9:30. I can't help but make fun of how long the lines are. I don't know how this works but in our municipal hall in San Pedro, Laguna there are actually two lines. The first line is for getting the registration form. After filling up all necessary information you fall in the second line where registrants pass the form. The you're going to wait until your name is called. After that they're going to have your picture, thumb marks and signature taken. 

          The process is quite easy and fast, what makes it look hard are the lines. I saw COMELEC Chairman Sixto Brillantes, Jr. in the news getting angry after seeing a lot of registrants in Quezon City. They are also blaming COMELEC for poor service. People tend to blame the government, this case the COMELEC, when things like this happen. I remember the sign that we saw while in the line: Registration will not be easy at this time. But don't blame us we've been waiting for you to register for the past 16 months. For me this is really correct. If you don't want to get stuck in a line full of late registrants you should've registered earlier. There is really no need to complain. But my friend told me why fall in line for a long time when you're just going to take a form and submit it? He said that it's not that hard to give forms and take it back after. Well, I'm not sure. Good thing Clarisse saw her brother-in-law who works in the municipal hall. He took our form and submitted it to the office and we just waited for our names to be called. We're like cheating, but it definitely saved us time. The only requirement they asked us is one valid i.d with our birth dates printed on it. 

          It was tiring, good thing I have my friends for company. One thing I learned is don't wait until the deadline to start doing things, be it personal or school things. Why do I always have to procrastinate and cram? I don't know.

           It's our University's 108th Founding Anniversary and lots of events are held, meaning, irregular classes. So I decided not to go to school for a week. I think I made the right decision because I spent most of my time sleeping, watching TV and go online for hours which I can't do often when I have class and stay at the dorm.

          Since we had irregular classes, I on the other hand, had irregular waking/eating/sleeping schedule. This week, I usually wake up around 2:00, 3:00 or even 4:00 in the afternoon and then I'll take my breakfast-lunch-snack rolled into one meal. Then I'll watch TV, the eat supper and watch again. At midnight I go online. For me not to be unproductive the whole day, I usually edit our online magazine or sometimes update my blog. I also make sure that I log in to my four accounts on different social networking sites to stay active. Around 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning is when I decide to go to sleep. Before going to bed, I'll remember all the school works I haven't done yet- Procrastination at its best! I'll tell myself to do it the next day, which I still forgot doing. I even go online on my mobile phone before "really" going to sleep. It's like torturing my body in a "silent treatment" type and I'm sure it's very unhealthy. I'm going to regret this when I get old.

          I'm back to school this week and my body clock is totally messes up and it's 2:50 AM in my clock and I'm still awake. I even need to travel early so I can unload my things to the dorm before heading to school. Good luck to that!

We Felt Infinite Part 2

September 28, 2012      

          The awarding ceremony begins at 1:00 pm up to 5:00 pm, we also have a seminar conducted by the GMA News TV for their 'Learniversity' program. I don't want to throw away the opportunity to learn more about the "real world" of broadcasting when the speaker is one of the prime broadcasters in the country, Ms. Kara David. On our college, various entries from of silent films from all junior broadcasting students are being watched in our college's lobby. Updates are just given to me by my friends who didn't attend the seminar.

          When the seminar ended, my friends and I rushed back to our college to join the festivity. Our entry was the last to be watched. Good thing we arrived before our film was played. Then it began, our entry was being played. I felt uneasy sitting there watching it. There is like something inside me that wants to come out. At the end the people clapped and our team cheered. What annoys me is this girl who won't stop talking and bashing our film. She kept on asking questions but she's not even watching. Seriously? Watch so you won't ask!

           Then, the moment of truth, the awarding of the entries of this year's 'Sshh... Silent Short Film Festival.' At this point I became more uneasy. My team and friends kept on shouting the title of our film. I even told them that if we don't get an award we would definitely be speechless. Speechless because we were too noisy at that time that if we don't get an award we will feel little. When the head of FILAC started awarding, all were quiet. The first award to be given was 'The Best Screenplay,' it was a tie between III-1D and our section's other entry "Walley." I am so happy because they belong to same class as I am. The second award was 'Best Cinematography.' "The Best Cinematography goes to..." "BBrC III-2, JIGSAW!" I landed on my feet, started jumping and screaming. It was epic! I received the award because I thought it will be the only award we'll get.

But then, we took home 7 major awards including:


Best Picture
Best Cinematography
Best Sound
Best Editing
Best Production Design
Best Poster
Best Director

         

           The most special award given to me that night was Best Director and Best Picture! The moment was epic! I swear, the feeling was indescribable, when you are standing there in front of the crowd with your team cheering, holding those precious awards, smiles on their faces, and that very moment when everything is priceless. I didn't even care what I look like all that matters is that precise moment. God has blessed us so much. Best Actor and Best Actress were awarded to my classmates from the other prod team. It was definitely our section's night! The only award that our section didn't get? People's Choice Award. But that's OK, what's People's Choice Award compared to all major awards right?

         






To God be the glory for all the great things He has done!

"... And in that moment, I swear we were infinite."

-Charlie, "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" by Stephen Chbosky