The weird feeling of being Alone

          On weekdays, I usually stay on a condo near school. I actually live there with three other people: A call center agent, a new friend that I barely see because she's usually not there, and a friend way back in high school. Even though there are four of us, sometimes I do feel alone. On my part, sometimes I really need to go home when there are some important things I need to do. But when it's them that need to go home, I'm the one who's alone. There's really no issue for me when I'm left behind. I'm kind of used to it. But, I'd rather have someone to talk to or just for me to not feel alone.

          When I'm alone, suddenly the studio-type condo becomes quiet and I feel the time standing still. Every little thing I notice and hear. Sometimes I feel uneasy but I don't mind. I keep on imagining things and trying to remember memories. Then it's either the TV or the book that I'm reading becomes my best friend. I also don't want to talk when I'm alone, because sometimes I do, it's pointless. No one could hear and nobody cares. That's why I don't like being alone because all of a sudden I feel lonely.

          The good thing when I'm alone is that I have the liberty to do all the things that I want. The peace and silence that I'm looking for when I am with someone is everywhere. I can concentrate on the things that I wanted to do. It's more fun to read, write and listen to music when I'm alone. I experience these things in this room better when I'm off alone.

          Some people likes to be alone, some people don't. For me, being alone depends on the moment and just living in that moment. But it's this weird feeling I get when I'm alone. You see, when I'm alone, I feel that someone is staring at me.

                                                                                                                                                           -L.A

Whispering 'Thank You'

          A child dies of malnutrition. A student can't finish his or her studies because of financial difficulties. Hundreds of families living on the street. A woman becomes a victim of domestic violence. An old man asking for food. A girl having a tough day because she's bullied. When a person can't see. A man barely walking because of his ample legs. A person not having anyone to turn to. When someone is having a tough time. When all theses happen, we may all think, "Some people have it a lot worse."

          We usually complain about almost everything around us. I definitely think that it's a part of our nature to ask for more. But we seldom think or give thanks for the things that we have. There are a lot of things to be grateful for. From the moment you wake up until you sleep again. This very moment that you are still alive is a very great opportunity to say 'thank you.' Hug your mom and dad, your brothers and sisters. Laugh with your friends and avoid dramas. Be grateful because you have a house to live in, foods to eats, your body is complete and is healthy, you go to school and learn, and the list goes on.

          Some people say life is unfair. But let's say that it's just a matter of contentment. Think of all the people who are experiencing things a lot worse than you do. We might not have everything that we want but try to look at the things and people that make you complete and happy. So, when we see people experiencing it a lot worse, whisper a little 'Thank You" to God.

Experiencing Writer's Block

          I hate that feeling when I'm trying to write and express myself, it's either ideas keep coming in or I don't have anything to write at all. I usually write my works on a piece of paper first and one of the hardest parts for me is staring at that blank page and thinking what to write. It's like you have a canvass in front of you but you don't know what color of paint you'll use first. Sometimes, when I write, ideas and words fill my mind making it impossible for me to even continue what I started. A lot of times, there's just nothing. Just silence, a piece of paper, a pen and me in a room. And it frustrates me! When you wanted to express yourself through writing but you just can't? Really?

          I believe that no writer has not crumpled a piece of paper before and throwing it in the bin. I consider myself an amateur and needs to practice more in writing. And this has become a challenge for me to write even better. I'm just beginning and I know that I will crumple more papers in the future.

-L.A

The Adrenaline in my Veins

The world of Mass Communication is a very exciting one. I love the adrenaline it gives. The challenges you face everyday would never be the same as the one you have before. Every day is an adventure, every day is an experience.

There are two things that I would love to do - write and direct.  There is something with writing that makes me feel complete. Sharing your experiences and making a story out of it. I also become fully aware of ideas and concepts that I would like someday to come alive. I want to unleash that if I become a director.

It's rewarding when you make a living on what you love to do most.

-L.A

A Requirement?

I don't want to think that I made this blog just to comply with my professor's requirement. I want this blog to tell everyone my story. To tell everyone who I really am and what I'm going through. I want to inspire people and make them feel special.

I would love to post things about my life, frustrations, role-models, dreams, things that I love and hate and people that have become part of my exciting journey.

What started as a requirement would hopefully become my little outlet to the world.
So listen... I got a little story to tell.

-L.A