Ending the Routine

“I always wonder why birds choose to stay in the same place when they can fly anywhere on the earth, then I ask myself the same question.”

― Harun Yahya

8:00 a.m

          In the morning you wake up to the sound of your alarm clock, get dress, prepare and head for school. You wait on the same bench for the bus every day, travelling the same route praying the traffic's not heavy. Then you alight the bus and transfer to the train, buying your ticket from someone who is obvious that he doesn't enjoy he's job. If you arrive early or exactly on time before the train arrive you're lucky but if you got left behind, you better find a good way of killing 30 minutes of your time.

10:00 a.m

          At school there's a lot of time to have fun with your friends. The stories and the laughter you share with them and living in that moment is something to look forward every day. You roll your eyes to your teachers and sigh to your stupid classmates.

5:00 p.m

          After a long day you travel back home- tired and sleepy. You've memorize every doors to enter, turns to take and steps to climb. You become numb to everything around you because you're used to it. This long ride home makes you imagine everything you want to be and have. In every small detail you think of things you know deep inside is impossible to happen, but you do it anyway.

7:00 p.m

          At home, of course, the usual- you watch TV, procrastinate in front of the computer then go to bed. There are times when you can't sleep. You have everything that you need but you still think of having a better life- a life more exciting, a life where every day brings you to new places and a life where you are not stuck in a routine. So before you sleep you tell yourself that tomorrow you'll do better and make a change for yourself. 

          The next day you failed yourself. For that not to happen again you wrote in your journal "Tomorrow I'll do better and make a change for myself." You forgot to check your journal the next day, the next week and the next month. For a year nothing has change. You blame time and money because they're rarely available. Then you blame yourself for not really trying. You are sick of your usual boring life but you don't even try to change it.

          You know to yourself that you want to live life fully but you find it hard. When? Now you have all the time and energy but not enough money. How about when you're working? You have the money and energy but how about time? When you grow older? You'll have all the money and time but no energy. Life is short. you better start working on it.

Almost Done with School

          These past couple of months has been very, very busy for me. There's just a lot of school works to do and deadlines to meet. It seems that our professors have talked to each other and decided to make us suffer by giving tasks after another with almost the same date of submission.

          It's proven that 2nd semester in class (for our course) is a walk in a park- a park with flamethrowers, crazy professors with PMS and a bunch of walkers/zombies that appear when you least expect it. A lot of productions and paper works lead me to few hours of sleep and messed up schedule for the things that I really want to do. Some of the thing I worked hard for this semester includes:

• Writing and directing our short film 
• Writing a part of our script, making props and being in charge on our production book for CETV production
• Writing the script for our Orthodox Jew presentation
• Writing an article for our magazine.
• THESIS!

          That doesn't include the quizzes and exams and other requirements our professors wants us to do.

          This, I think, would be the fall back of having a quite easy 1st semester- easier compared to this one! Classes ended last week but we are still in line for requirement completion and thesis defense. Well, I'm a student and it's really what I should be doing. Things like this are my least favorite part of being a student but I sure do believe that these things will help me learn and prepare for the real life of media production and broadcasting.

          

          Yeah right I'm complaining now but I'm sure I'm going to miss this moments. My remaining months will remind me how easier it is in school than my life in the future.

2012

          This is going to be my last post for the year. I'm doing this while hearing the sounds of fireworks and music around me. There's actually no 'great' year for me. It's just that this year has taught me a lot of valuable things in life.

          + Friends do come and go and I realized how hard friendship can be made but easy for it to crumble. But I think things like this happen for the better. At least I know the people who I can really trust and be comfortable with.

          + There are a lot of things to be grateful for. Yeah, I know that this year was kind of tough financially, but I look around me and absorb all the things that I'm experiencing because I know I'm blessed. I have my family, friends, church and all the things that I NEED and that is what's important. I'm happy, really.

          + The fact that I'm still alive and able to continue living for the next year and enjoy it. Also for not killing somebody even if I really wanted to and they deserve it. LOL. I value life.

          I'm excited for 2013, it's actually 9 minutes before midnight. Thank you God!!!

T.T

It sickens me when I keep on doing the same mistake over and over again and yet I don't help myself change. I always keep telling myself that "this would be the last time" "I won't do it again" yet I always fall on the same trap. I'm not comfortable sharing the mistake/sin I did. It's not the point anyway.

GOD HATES SIN. It gives this sort of barrier between us. I really feel ashamed for the things that I asked forgiveness for but I still keep on doing.

I'm really trying, maybe just not good enough. Weak? Maybe, spiritually.

Going to Church Won't Make You a Christian

I sat quietly on one of the pews of our Church, trying hard to understand the sermon that struck me the most. The pastor illustrates that standing on a bench won’t make you a bench. Likewise, going to church won’t make you a Christian.

I also remember a colleague saying that going to church is religion, because you “religiously” do this once, twice or thrice a week. What’s important though is having an intimate relationship with God.

So what makes a church-goer a Christian?

What the Pastor said is that when a person can’t get enough of the love of Christ. You hear Christ when he speaks, you see Christ in his actions and when the likeness of Christ is in him.

For me I think it’s true that it’s not enough to profess you’re a Christian by just believing in Christ/God. Supposedly, it’s how people see the light of Christ in you.

I would be a hypocrite if I say that I embody Christ’s image in me. But it’s something that we should look forward in our daily lives. I’m really trying hard to do and be good every day. Every day is a constant battle of choosing what’s right and what’s wrong.

Each day should be an opportunity to get closer to God and know more about his amazing love.

Season Premier

          Two weeks of break from school is not enough. I can't believe that school is going to start again. The thoughts of me going back to school on Monday makes me feel uneasy and I'm just not ready.

           A large part of my sem break went to sleeping, watching TV and going online. Some parts were spent on writing and procrastinating- it's what I do best! I actually made a list of things-to-do this break and 90% of that was not done. I'm so lazy! The only major thing I can think of that I became very productive was me registering as a voter, which took only few hours to get done. I was also supposed to continue doing my 1,000 piece puzzle but I think I only added two pieces. For 2 weeks I only added 2 pieces. LOL. SRSLY! Again, I'm so lazy. I also wrote in my things-to-do list to read any material for 2 hours but I only read tweets and anything that I see on my news feeds. I also tried changing my waking/sleeping routine but that never happened as well.

Here's what I do normally:

Around
2:00-3:00 pm

I wake up and have my late lunch. If I wake up early like 12, I eat then watch little TV then take a nap and wake up again around 3 or for in the afternoon.

3:00-10:00 pm

This is the time where I watch TV, eat dinner, shower, do random non-sense stuff, watch more TV, lying in my bed imagining things that'll never happen, listening to my new downloaded music and stretching (I love stretching).

10:00 pm-1:00 am

I go online. Of course I do the usual- Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Google+ and YouTube. Sometimes if I get on the computer a little late I finish a little late too.

1:00-3:00 am

This is the part of day where I channel surf, do personal hygiene thing and eat snacks before going to sleep. I usually check fb and twitter on my phone before really sleeping, and then I pray after that I hit the sack.

          Yeah I know that my sem break is pretty lame, but I still liked it. I know that in the next few days I'll be waking up early again, doing loads of assignment and dealing with school's never ending drama, and this sem break literally gave me a break of everything stressful at school. Since school's going to start I'm going to stay in Manila more often than with my family and that is what I'm going to miss the most.

          Another season will be premiering on Monday and I'm hoping that it will turn out great. Last semester was running smoothly until we reached the latter part of it- a season ender I'll never forget.

Jigsaw: Movie and Trailer

This should have been posted weeks ago.  -_-

          Our silent short film, Jigsaw, is one of our section's entries in this year's 'Shh... Silent Short Film Festival. This is just a small event of our college lead by the FILAC (Film Aficionados Circle), spear-headed by Ms. Arapia Ariraya. She's our professor in our Film Appreciation subject. All 5 sections of the 3rd year broadcasting students should have at least 1 or 2 entries.

          When I was in first year or maybe 2nd year, I forgot, my friend lends me a copy of short scary stories. Some of the stories were pretty scary. Some were just a bit off to me. It's this one story that I thought could be a good piece for a short silent film. I've learned that it's a campfire story in the U.S. HERE is the link of the story I was talking about. We kind of change some parts and made it our own. But of course it's clearly an adaptation.

Here is the trailer and the complete clip of Jigsaw. We're not that good so please don't expect too much.

Trailer

Film

These are the awards we got:

BEST POSTER

BEST SOUND

BEST PRODUCTION DESIGN

BEST EDITING

BEST CINEMATOGRAPHY

BEST PICTURE

BEST DIRECTOR: ME! Leo Alexis Ecijan

Thank you God!

           You might want to read what happened before and during the awarding: Click HERE and HERE.